Hi!
May is ending and this is the first and the last post for May.
Things are kinda well...
Hang out with my secondary school friends every now and then, whenever I am back in JB or they came to S'pore to have dinner or lunch. And their status would be:
'Going overseas for lunch today'. It's funny! I think they are still the best friends I ever had. The usual gang : Cindi, Huah Rong, Yvonne, Hui Zhen. Wei Ling now is already an accounts auditor, really quite difficult to meet up with her eventhough we are working in the same country now.
A few are in KL and in London.
We are called '
sakais' gang back in sec sch. Haha! We ain't complete without the 12 of us.
Now is a bit hard to have a complete group.
Funny how people think I am together with Cindi. Come on! Can't I have a best close girl friend. Is it so hard for people to accept or see ? PEOPLE LOVE TO JUDGE. Go ahead dear fkers! I'm tired of living with people like this. You not happy, you can leave! The door is always open.
People just wanna dig story from me and spread it like wildfire. Dream on! It is not concern but a fake concern from them which I don't need it.
Well for me, I don't really enjoy watching or be part with this kind of people. Watching them further on would make me lost my respect for them and loose faith in people. Full of bull_shit!
stupid peeple!
I've few other best close girl friends, Lela, Charlene, Qing Ying, Kim, my cousin Shannon.
Not forgetting my two best close guy friends, Elton and Khairul. We enjoyed bickering, mocking at one another, sharing the most exciting stories and inside jokes throughout poly days. Now still keeping in touch with them eventhough they are in army/Navy. Now I am waiting for June to come so that I could hang out with them till dawn one of the day.
Last but not least my Adventure Club Alumnis and Juniors. Yea, I go back NYP very often ever since poly started. Fridays are open for alumnis to climb and get together.
New rockwall is tough! Actually I didn't climb much, I just want to hang out there and be with them. It is like my 3rd home.
Work in my ward... erm.. workload is heavy as usual, nothing new. I worked with a happy heart and grumble less during work. When I came across certain things that is hard to accept, I would really talk to my mum about it. She has been very supportive. Yea... work is never easy but I'm trying my best to make it as easy as possible.
Till this date, I have faced quite a number of death cases and I am too numbed to be depressed or shed tears. I don't feel anything at all. Let me explained, our assignments are not fixed. Today you're assigned to nurse team 1 then next day team 2. Forever changing. Main point is, we don't always nursing the same patients. Life and death already part and parcel in my life.
Do cherish people you love or you once loved before it's too late especially your parents. I've seen a lot of this advice. We tend to take things for granted, I'm one of them for sure. =P
At the end of the day please don't blame any healthcare professional for not informing earlier or informing late that your love one is dangerously ill and has already rest in peace. The complaints won't bring them back to life. What you had caused/brought are sufferings to people who are still alive (healthcare professional). Trust me, you don't want to create chaos and make a mountain out of a molehill. Spare our little life please.
Wanna mention, a lot of staffs has left or planning to leave my ward. wth! sigh!
Another thing is I can't understand why they have this fear among them. They are scared of each other. Funny how I will never understand this point. Let them be cause I am stuck in between and don't know what to say. Probably I was daring enough to ignore all the unnecessary fear and stay happy go lucky. Whatever they want to say about me, be my guest!
Blogging is a kind of remedy. =)
Off to bed now. Last night shift tonight and I will be gone for a good while.
Be back in 1st of June.
I just felt, after this one whole year of working life and people that I've met along the way changed me in a way that I don't even recognize myself anymore. This is a bit terrifying. I thought about this while on my way back from work.
I get hurt so damn easily! I thought I was strong. Probably I was wrong.
Gonna take some time and do self reflection. I will seriously considering of giving up something and it's not easy to do that. Once I've decided, that will lead to giving up everything and shut away from everything until I have only one thing to concentrate in.
Yeah... a 22 years old mind is already giving up in exchange for a stronger heart.
♥our lips must always be sealed
10:21 AM
Thursday, May 20, 2010