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The name is i-kim. Pronounced similar to kimmi I am a girl, love outdoors, adventure. Love to be loved, kisses and hugs.

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"If we live our life in fear,
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Sunday, December 12, 2010

Not even fully three years. Already thinking of switching my job. I've never put nursing as my career. That's not really what I want. Definition for 'job' and 'career' is different, go check it out.

I've been putting up with all the unnecessary workload! I really had enough. I thought I will like it but the nursing here/now is totally different from what I thought it was. It ain't easy. Ya, nothing in this world is ever easy. Why do I complain so much? Why not I just fucked off and payback the sum?

Well, I know I shouldn't give up so easily and that's why I'm still hanging on try and try.
If there's no challenges, it would be a mundane routine and so on.
Mmmm..truth to be told, there's an incident happened last week, rest assured I never caused any harm to my patient. This incident causes me to raise an hosp-occurance report. I thought that's enough and is over. Who knows the FUCKING top management went to investigate more of where is staff mistake instead of checking where his own system mistake.
An error made is not on purpose, do you think I didn't take it seriously? I still can't get over it, never!!
If the staff went into depressive state, I don't think the hospital would give fuck. Staffs been treated like shit! They just pretend to care and then add in more paperwork when they wanna a paperless system. What shit are they talking!??? Can they make up their childish mind?! Stop playing with SOP, BUNDLE.

Instead of finding out how are we coping? Is the system too tough to follow or is it necessary? staffing enough? NO!! They rely on this weird system called t-r-e-n-c-a-r-e which said that m-o-h will oversee this. Patients 'aquity' ( not sure of the spelling) or something else.

Oh god!!! I have so much to share! How unhappy we are and how the staff there long to leave.

For now I really can't take it anymore and I burst out crying in front of my boy everytime I meet him. It's a torture for him to see me this sad. I know.. But I can't act out that 'I'm fine' I really can't. God just forgive me for behavin this way. I will try to change my attitude and behaviour. Just give me some time. Need to vent it out first!! Been bottle up for so long and I'm suffocating.
I want to go out of this place because this is not where I want to be. I don't want to be unhappy everyday. I gotta like what I am doing.

Tomorrow post, hopefully I will be writting something more positive and ways to cope with those nonsense.
Ale Ai Kim!!! I can do this. (",)
I'm not a loser!


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