He had care too much for me, ya.

I was speechless at one point of time, yea I may not get it the way a guy anxious about his girl who went drinking and clubbing with other girl friends without letting him know.

Drinking is totally not my style. In the pub, I ordered orange juice like seriously. But I had few sips from my friend drinks each. In the club, just beer... took a few sips too.

Long time back, I didn't even take a single sip. Is either I don't drink at all or just chew some ice chip. And my friends know me well enough. Now, different story... I... I think I have failed to be me in a certain way. I am such a letdown sometimes.

I didn't get to be perfect like what and how a Virgo can be.

All in all, I am pretty lucky to have him to care about me too.

So far he has got good temper, can tolerate all my shit.

But, it is so unfair for him.

Though sometimes she may talk a bit too much but it is kinda entertaining.

She gonna be missed man.

'People come and go' very true indeed.

Thankfully I am on leave for a week. pretty cool! I called it [Temporary Retired] .Get to be away from ward for two Public Holiday is really awesome.

I was still working last year with a very emotional mood. Heartbroken totally. Me and him were badly damaged. sigh...

Managed to catch up with a few of my close friend in JB on 25th Dec evening for dinner. Celebrated YL & HZ birthday. Yvonne and Cindi just came back from KL, countdown for Christmas in KL. As for me I was at home during Christmas eve.

Going to Penang with my family for another celebration later. Back on the 29th, then got to go back to ward to give mummy Doris (permanent night staff) her farewell card. I only trust myself to do it as I still need to paste pictures all over the freaking huge-ass card. She is gonna love it.

Till then.. be back soon..

It was a huge responsibility I sense... Well, I take it like a big deal. Having her to be under my care, I am sure sister must have trusted me & my work enough. Okay, I am totally cool with it.

Seen her during the noon time, I was guessing which one and then I sort of guess it right. I called this girl out and squinted my eyes to see her name-tag while she is walking towards me. I was so shy and then I said nothing. I don't know how to intro myself as her preceptor. I guess I will just let her find out herself who is 'Ai Kim'. hahah!!! *funny* Wow!!! She is so pretty!!! hahah!!! Pretty Malay girl, not so minah tho, most importantly she look smart. Maybe is a mixed blood? Yup, guess she is a fast learner and maybe kinda independent. Lets see if my judgement is correct.

Spoken to her after me and my colleagues finished decorating Christmas tree which is like 8pm already. First thing she asked me, what you want me to read?

I was like... ''hahah.. chill this is just your first week..'' Just familiarize with the surrounding and get to know people. Learn up juniors works these two weeks because she may not have the chance to backdate. I find observing people and building rapport is the key thing. Observe how people function and pick up their good point. Take initiative and be observant. That is what I want her to learn first. In short, attitude. And then I lost focus on what to say... I told her she is my second preceptee... and I will see her again after 4 days..

Not forgetting our psy consultant manage to find us like 7pm. HE really look for us because the pit wasn't updated in the e-mail. It was suppose to be at pit 23. OMG!!! He had walk a long long way to find us. Wow!!! He is so...... I don't know what to say.. I mean we were so touched by his appear. but he left after taking a few pictures and taken two satays. HAHA.. *laughs*

The text you send me this morning made me so happy, it seems like you know I am waiting for it.
People may think our relationship is just a year thing and can get over easily.
I think we have gone too deep that is why it matters the most.

It gonna take the longest time, this time I don't know how long.
I wouldn't expect too much because I am the one letting you go and pushing you out of my life.

I shouldn't be upset or trying to figure out who have you gone out with or which girl you are chatting with because I know I don't have the right now.
Sometimes it just hurt like mad.

Hoping we can get through this hardship, somehow, someday.
Will be busy for the next whole week cause I am gonna work for 6 days before my off.
Really do hope nothing interrupts it, I just taken one MC few days ago, very emotionally hurt like hell!!!
Haven't been involve with ADC stuff for quite a long time, this 30th will be the combined PT, guess I should drop by if I get to swap my shift.
Adventure race in January so have to train my stamina too.

In the meantime, I was appointed to be the leader organizing Ward year End Party.

Thank God everything is sorted out now, venue and food.
Just need to have a rough idea about the itinerary and decorations.
Thankful to have a bunch of supportive colleague. I know they are people who may not like it but, those are only a small bunch of them maybe just a handful. Doesn't really matter.

Having the chance to plan this event sort of helping me building up my strength and confidant.
Thanks for my bosses' trust in me. Thought they may get some senior to do it. But hey! i can do it too... being this active made me happy too.